My previous post sucks. Haha. I mean, I don't know. It just sucks. It's I already admitted that something but right now I really do not feel something. Okay, sometimes I do, sometimes I dont'.
Two weeks to go and classes would be starting again. Tiring 10 months. So many things to wait for. Trainings, entrance tests, and other activities. So exciting and at the same time pressuring. Yes, we're already Seniors. How's that?
Three days and review classes would be over. Yey :) So what's left is Match Compre, ACET and DLSU. Wow. I did not see how those 4 weeks have passed already. riding 3-5 jeeps a day. Haha. Oh well. I sitll haven't decided on what course to put as my second choice in my UPCAT form. I really fo find it hard to decide on what to write their. Oh well. Goodluck to me.
Yes, I would be posting again starting now. But I'm not yet in the mood to type something more sensible. Haha.
K. Bye.
Why does everything seem so unfair? Maybe because what we want is not what happens and having that feeling of "want" makes us think that what we really want is the right thing, comparing it to what is really happening that seems so unfair for us. Yes, everything is unfair but we only have one choice, just accepting what is happening. So what else is unfair? "People always leave"-OTH. Why do people need to leave? Can't they just stay forever with you? TO tell you the truth, I really haven't experience saying goodbye for real with anyone. Yes, I have relatives who died already. But they died before I was born, so I was not that affected. But this time, damn. I don't know how. I really hate changes and this would be a one big change again. I am already so used being with a few people. It's like, they are very important to me. They complete me. They make me. I am what they want me to be and what they are. So tell me, how can I handle that? Big change again. I know I got to move on and just accept it. Unfair again. I know what to do but I don't know how. I know that dwelling on them would not make me move in nor be in a good in condition. Oh well : Yes. Accept and just accept. There's still something. Why do I always have to feel what I don't want to feel? I do recognize what is it, but I just can't accept it. No way. I cannnot admit it to myself nor admit it someone. And I cannot really admit it to that someone. The bad thing is, yes, I got used to what's happening again knowing that it's not really permanent. I cannot tell her that what she's saying already is O-U-C-H. I cannot blame her for that, for she doesn't even know. What's bad is I really don't want the feeling because I know what's really going to happen and what's not really going to happen. She can't, and I can't too. But I can't help it. I feel it and it sucks. It hurt me, and it sucks again. If only I can really forget that easily and just not think about it. But hell, no. It's already a part of my everyday and the more that I do think about it, the more I feel that I realy really suck and there's no hope for it. It's really something that makes life difficult for me today and maybe tomorrow and the next coming days. So yeah, what I need to do is just to accept and move on again. Fine. But, I don't know. What's bad is, yes, I am affected, greatly affected. Okay, enough. I don't believe that it's really true and I am not admitting it yet. So why bother think about it? Oh well, I don't know. I don't really know.
Wow. I'm posting :D Haha. Well, I was moved by my posts. Haha. I mean, I missed posting.
Okay, about my post's title, well, here I go again. I am in the same stage again. Yeah, the stage that I've been going through and not going through for almost a year. It's hard. And I hope that this one would be successful already. I don't know. There's no point of making it still last, I think. No benefits. Not really a good thing so why make it last? Why give my time on it if me and my efforts are really not that appreciated? I need to grow. I need to surpass this one. I need change. I'm already tired of going back. The same things just happen. Yes, sometimes their are a-little-different ones. But I should not make big deals about them. All's been said and done. It's already over, between me and that person. Why linger on memories that would not happen anymore? No point of staying. It's over. I just need to accept that it's over. I cannot already change the things that happend. But I can change my view about them. Just be happy dear and don't mind me :) It's too late baby there's no turning around. Yeaahhh :) Go Lexi :)
Okay. So many events to look forward to. Fair, Intrams, Com Arts Week, EOP, Prom, TLE Week. Dang. Yes, very busy. Haha.
Wala na. Nawala na ko sa mood magpost. Haha. Next time na lang ule. Oh well.
I guess this time it really is goodbye. You made it clear when you said, I just don't love you no more.
Okay. Long time no post as I always do say. It's already 2008 :)) Wow.
Shitty blogger. The google group does not accept some skins' codes. It's like blah blah do not match with the end tag body blah blah blah and so on and so on. Okay. I give up. I'll just use blogger's templates and just edit. Yeah, edit. But it would not look that nice. Argh. Okay. Haha. Enough :D
I'm so addicted...with studying? Haha. Ewan ko. Okay, basta ayun. Anlabo ko na naman. Bagong taon na di pa rin ako nagbabago. Napaka-cute. Haha.
I want to go to TriNoma. Tsk.
Oh well.
